...this new road was unfamiliar for Mara. When he started asking her how the cookie tasted, when did somebody hen pave it. Was somebody allowed to have it while pregnant?
unfortunately, Mara answered all his questions as best as she could because anyway, does eating the cookie once or twice make you the professor of cookie eating all of a sudden?
why did he suddenly need to ask Mara all these questions? what gave him the right to ask her all these questions?/ would he have dared to ask her if she had not gotten pregnant?
that is a question for another day.
so, it was during one of these insane late night sharing of sexual experience(at least on Mara's part) that Gephas made a stunning revelation.
He told Mara that all along, ever since he met her actually he had had feelings for her but was unable to act on them since he was a bit older and he had realized this only after Mara had finished form four.
Mara was over the moon and like a burst water pipe, began to pour out all that was in her heart, she went on and on about how she too had had feelings for him, about how she too just did not know how to share them with him, she went on about why he did not tell her about it. To which he replied that he was afraid of her father. As Mara would recall, she talked most of the rest of the night, all this time opening her heart too the man she had always thought would replace Peter, her primary school sweetheart.
Shocker!!! sine they were now past, the feelings part having established their feelings for each other, Mara, decided to ask about what happened to his previous girlfriend since a man does not open up about his feelings for you while they belong to another, right?
nope! wrong! well, not entirely wrong unless the man was simply taking you for an emotional road trip but only you were on the road, he never went with you. something like a GPS. he knows the road and so he is able to lead you very well along it but he is right where he was at the start of the journey or in Mara's case, he is heading a completely different direction.
Gephas took this particular ooprtunity to make his great reveal- 'swiry'. this is a woman who he was in a relationship with for two yeras and he loved her so much. yeah yeah, whatever man.
as shocking and a tad too painful as it was for Mara, not so much about the woman but about the staggering realization that she had been dealt on a good one, she held her head high and replied Oh! she could e casual too about the matter , right?
so, what was this saved brother getting at by his bastard like behaviour. wass it a moment of satanic influence or what? Mara will never understand. she also will never understand his casual treatment of their interractions, lik ethey never happened.
it took a coule of failed attempts for Mara to totally move on from this saved brother and his consatnt emotional manipulations and unclear signals buut at least she installed a GPS system for future road trips.
The saved brother is now married and when alone Mara reminds herself that she was always alone in this game and hopes that she is wiser now. She has learned that the gem with the roughest edges is mostly the most precious ones. what she doesn't get is this," is Jesus not a source of peace and not pain? How can somebody who claims to have him behave the opposite by such a large margin? Hmmm....
Saturday, 27 February 2016
Monday, 1 February 2016
Red-hot carpet: THIS PARTICULAR CHRISTIAN BROTHER(prt 1)
Red-hot carpet: THIS PARTICULAR CHRISTIAN BROTHER(prt 1): Mara's mother always told her that if she got a man, he should be saved. i agree, because in all honesty, how can two walk together unless...
THIS PARTICULAR CHRISTIAN BROTHER(prt 1)
Mara's mother always told her that if i get a man, he should be saved. i agree, because in all honesty, how can two walk together unless they agree?(Amos3;3).
however, there is this crucial part of the equation that mothers forget to add, mine included. that, if you happen to find a brother who is not a practicing born again, you cannot change him, rather, he will draw you to his way and then boom! i know it sounds like it should be common sense but as Mara found out,common sense was not hat much common. Anyway, for today, that is not the point.because I am not yet sure how to down that road without being hypocritical or judgmental. Let me tell you about this christian brother. Whether he is a practicing born again is between him and Jesus.
Mara was seven months pregnant by the time she was finally able to tell her parents and go home. Gephas was her neighbor back in the village. he was at the time, the only one of all her neighbors the one she could relate. Gephas was a little older than her but they could talk and laugh. he always made her uncomfortable and nervous and Mara did a long list of stupid things when she was around the guy. she was a fluent speaker( she is a performing artiste-speech is vital for the success of this chosen career path) but somehow, she stammered through everything she said when she was with him. she trembled even, damn, she could hear her voice shake. she only got that feeling when she was on stage, you know while performing an act. Which is exactly what she would do whenever she was in the presence of this man.
Mara considered this Gephas person a friend. so, since she had jumped the hurdle of telling her parents about the pregnancy, she could tell her friends, at least the ones who did not know yet. one of them was Gephas. she settled on a text because she dared not call lest he ignored her quite openly.
the sequence she has now gotten used to followed;
shock- disbelief('' What! you are lying, uwongo)- awkward questions( so, what are you going to do?, who is the father?)-moment of silence-asking for time to process( let me call you).
Call he did,albeit late into the night. and my oh my. He was exactly what Mara needed. He was not judgmental, they joked about it and Mara felt a little at ease. The following months were late night chats which would sometimes go late into the night. he was always so encouraging and supportive. always telling her to pray for her baby every day, to be still and let God be God. all this was so cool and very helpful through out her pregnancy.
He was there even for the delivery, at least he was one of the people he texted to ask for prayers when the doctors told her her baby was in distress and she needed surgery. He even came to see her in hospital and brought with him a card.
All this time, Mara's head knew that he was just a big brother. but why did her body temperature shoot any time he was around her, and why did did she anticipate a message from him all the time?
Brother Gephas was still supportive even after the birth of the baby and would still text until his encouragement took a different turn altogether.
however, there is this crucial part of the equation that mothers forget to add, mine included. that, if you happen to find a brother who is not a practicing born again, you cannot change him, rather, he will draw you to his way and then boom! i know it sounds like it should be common sense but as Mara found out,common sense was not hat much common. Anyway, for today, that is not the point.because I am not yet sure how to down that road without being hypocritical or judgmental. Let me tell you about this christian brother. Whether he is a practicing born again is between him and Jesus.
Mara was seven months pregnant by the time she was finally able to tell her parents and go home. Gephas was her neighbor back in the village. he was at the time, the only one of all her neighbors the one she could relate. Gephas was a little older than her but they could talk and laugh. he always made her uncomfortable and nervous and Mara did a long list of stupid things when she was around the guy. she was a fluent speaker( she is a performing artiste-speech is vital for the success of this chosen career path) but somehow, she stammered through everything she said when she was with him. she trembled even, damn, she could hear her voice shake. she only got that feeling when she was on stage, you know while performing an act. Which is exactly what she would do whenever she was in the presence of this man.
Mara considered this Gephas person a friend. so, since she had jumped the hurdle of telling her parents about the pregnancy, she could tell her friends, at least the ones who did not know yet. one of them was Gephas. she settled on a text because she dared not call lest he ignored her quite openly.
the sequence she has now gotten used to followed;
shock- disbelief('' What! you are lying, uwongo)- awkward questions( so, what are you going to do?, who is the father?)-moment of silence-asking for time to process( let me call you).
Call he did,albeit late into the night. and my oh my. He was exactly what Mara needed. He was not judgmental, they joked about it and Mara felt a little at ease. The following months were late night chats which would sometimes go late into the night. he was always so encouraging and supportive. always telling her to pray for her baby every day, to be still and let God be God. all this was so cool and very helpful through out her pregnancy.
He was there even for the delivery, at least he was one of the people he texted to ask for prayers when the doctors told her her baby was in distress and she needed surgery. He even came to see her in hospital and brought with him a card.
All this time, Mara's head knew that he was just a big brother. but why did her body temperature shoot any time he was around her, and why did did she anticipate a message from him all the time?
Brother Gephas was still supportive even after the birth of the baby and would still text until his encouragement took a different turn altogether.
Saturday, 30 January 2016
Red-hot carpet: I WISH HE CHEATED
Red-hot carpet: I WISH HE CHEATED: Most people in a relationship dread the day they either catch their other half cheating or they simply find out he/she was cheating on them....
I WISH HE CHEATED
Most people in a relationship dread the day they either catch their other half cheating or they simply find out he/she was cheating on them. the thought that he saw somebody else apart form you is what hurts the most. then follows the regret of the time you two spent together. afterward, the details- the money you spent on this ungrateful human, the friends you bailed because of him/ her. the parties you missed because he was sick. (I have at this point decided to use he as my case in point). you know, the little things that make you actually believe that being hypnotized is real.
but, what if the day comes that you live wishing that he made a mistake so you could leave him? what if you fell in love with two people and as each day passes, you constantly wish that it was the other one?
lets call her Mara. she had a great man by his side who evidently adored her. however, the bug of the ex bit her.( remind me again, why are exes usually more interesting than bae. you know, the ex whom you just stopped talking to, not that you two fought or something.)
Peter, was a fashion blogger and a poet. so, he was a creative like her. she sought him out on face book and eventually on whats app. and boy, wasn't he way more fun than her bae Raphael. he actually got her jokes and went along with her sarcasm. eventually, she began to look forward to Peters conversations which i might add effortlessly trailed late into the night.
even though Mara knew that Raphael loved her, try as she might, their chats would last 15min before he explained how tired he was and needed to rest because he had work the next day, you see Raphael was an accountant. they basically had nothing to talk about save for complaints of fatigue and boring details about one meeting or the other.
with Peter, they connected artistically. they would exchange links, and share blogs.
Mara was a good girl, no; she could not possibly break up with Raphael. A midst his dull jokes and lack of conversational skills, he still was the most caring man she had ever met. He knew when she needed him. and he had been there for her through very dark times in her life, actually he was the only one who had been there to hold her hand and tell her, it would be okay.
as selfish as it sounded, but thank God it was only in her head; what if she caught him ccheating. then she would leave and go to be in the arms of Peter. and they would have this fairy tell union where the man always perfectly understand the woman.
ooh well, at this stage of her life, she knows that what a woman really needs is a man to stand with her in the darkness and whisper 'bae is here'.a man who will hold her till she calms down and the tears are dry.
she could try to simplify the jokes for him so that he laughs... maybe.
but, what if the day comes that you live wishing that he made a mistake so you could leave him? what if you fell in love with two people and as each day passes, you constantly wish that it was the other one?
lets call her Mara. she had a great man by his side who evidently adored her. however, the bug of the ex bit her.( remind me again, why are exes usually more interesting than bae. you know, the ex whom you just stopped talking to, not that you two fought or something.)
Peter, was a fashion blogger and a poet. so, he was a creative like her. she sought him out on face book and eventually on whats app. and boy, wasn't he way more fun than her bae Raphael. he actually got her jokes and went along with her sarcasm. eventually, she began to look forward to Peters conversations which i might add effortlessly trailed late into the night.
even though Mara knew that Raphael loved her, try as she might, their chats would last 15min before he explained how tired he was and needed to rest because he had work the next day, you see Raphael was an accountant. they basically had nothing to talk about save for complaints of fatigue and boring details about one meeting or the other.
with Peter, they connected artistically. they would exchange links, and share blogs.
Mara was a good girl, no; she could not possibly break up with Raphael. A midst his dull jokes and lack of conversational skills, he still was the most caring man she had ever met. He knew when she needed him. and he had been there for her through very dark times in her life, actually he was the only one who had been there to hold her hand and tell her, it would be okay.
as selfish as it sounded, but thank God it was only in her head; what if she caught him ccheating. then she would leave and go to be in the arms of Peter. and they would have this fairy tell union where the man always perfectly understand the woman.
ooh well, at this stage of her life, she knows that what a woman really needs is a man to stand with her in the darkness and whisper 'bae is here'.a man who will hold her till she calms down and the tears are dry.
she could try to simplify the jokes for him so that he laughs... maybe.
Red-hot carpet: A LETTER TO MY SMALL SISTER
Red-hot carpet: A LETTER TO MY SMALL SISTER: Dear Sister, Hallo, I am aware we have not had quite the textbook sister to sister relationship. However, I would like to share some life l...
Monday, 9 November 2015
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