so, over the weekend, I was privileged to be in the company of a group of volunteers as we traveled to go to brainstorm on one or two things.( you see I kind of joined a volunteer organization when I was left to begin the life of a single woman) .Well, it was also one of the reasons that I readily agreed to join the trip, it stared as a gateway from the anger and confusion .
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Oh well, we were on our way and the excitement was high even as we left for the Natures camp in Naivasha.This is nature and camps, if you really wanted a description. You should pass by sometime.
I mostly observe, and during my observation, a very interesting phenomena occurred on the way. I discovered that the concept of direction was not as obvious is assumed for adults. We made enough wrong turns and reverse turns based on the inability of this adult to tell left from right. When I think about it now,it was probably the best par of the trip because we still continuously asked him for the direction.Well, after enough seesaw , here there, we reached.
No, this is not a composition about my trip to Naivasha, so I will just touch on a few highlights that stood out for me.
First of all, I have never been a volunteer, maybe if you count the times I have acted without pay. So, being a member of Tuwakuze was a new experience for me.
While we were there however, the real reason fro my participation was apparent.The sheer joy of human relationship is inexplicable. We bonded like family, such love,such raw honesty in how you relate to your fellow human being, was amazing. Then I knew, this is why we volunteer, it is not for money or recognition, it is simply to get such an experience to one another and then be able to share it to the rest of the world.
Fun took a different meaning,no Facebook, no wats app memes, just us. we were constantly laughing, no judgement, the weekend was a place that you could be totally free to look, take notice.I was given a glimpse of people I did not know existed.
There was Alice, who literally sees the world in black and white,she does not understand code in any form. She speaks so clearly and wants you to do the same while speaking to her. She is a teacher and I bet the cheekiest of her students hate her with a passion .There is the fun loving Steve. Oh, this is superman, he is a bit petty but it is overshadowed by his sincere and true love. He pays such attention to how anyone feels and is as if he takes your pain on himself. Maybe it explained why he did not sleep the whole of Saturday and just had his faithful bottled companion. I think he took on so much pain and stress from us that he needed someone who understood. He did ask me to pray that he gets peace which I did. I hope he got peace ,he is too cool to not have peace.
I think I said something about brothers and sisters. Well, most of the time it was like that. But it was interesting to note the bonds that were forming. I think deep down , there is usually a trait that someone has that is on your checklist of the ideal someone but it just becomes pronounced in a particular person.I really believe in my heart this was what was happening to a couple of people.
Let me talk about myself.
You see I am in the season of crushes, dates, books on waiting for the one .And I am finally allowed to talk about my crushes without fear of explaining why He is not HE.(get it?). I loved many things about different guys.Top of the list is Mr.A.I have no idea how someone gets a balance of ceps(biceps and triceps) and muscle and voice and a smile and height. All these features threw me off balance every time I ran into him. Thank God he did not look my way even once because I would not know what to do. The beauty of a crush is looking from afar. The way his body moved to the music is one of the memories I will keep with me for sometime.Oh, my christian brothers and sisters, I did not think anything above that,I just appreciate that he is a marvel of creation in my eyes.
I love my friends to death and there was a moment that I actually thought that something beautiful was going to happen. This guy who was unable to take his hands off my girl got on one knee and for a millisecond I thought he would say something romantic, you know finally have the courage to admit what he felt. Truth be told, the frequency of the hands on y girl escalated as the weekend went by, he was clearly head over heels in whatever-in love-in like-in awe -of this girl .Well, long story short, he blew it but it was still beautiful. I hope they both find happiness, if not with each other then of course with other people.
The beautiful sights of everyone being coupled was beautiful. I sat alone in the bus mostly going and coming and this time there was no bile in my throat. I was okay. I stood up severally to just admire the scene on the bus and the world looked perfect. the ladies resting their tired heads on masculine shoulders feeling completely safe. The men looking so knightly as they held their ladies(even for one evening).
even with our left and right challenge, IT WAS PERFECT.
As for me, it has been a long time coming but as I rested my head on my sweater and lay on the seat, it was fine.It was okay.No bile, no anger, no pain.I will feel sad and lonely sometimes, I will want the shoulder to lean on, I will want to be fended for dangerous hippos, I want to be protected through a herd of cows.I will want to be ferried across a pool because I do not know hoe to swim maybe,but for now, I am okay. I sleep.
Steve will make sure to wake me up when we reach Nairobi.
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