...this new road was unfamiliar for Mara. When he started asking her how the cookie tasted, when did somebody hen pave it. Was somebody allowed to have it while pregnant?
unfortunately, Mara answered all his questions as best as she could because anyway, does eating the cookie once or twice make you the professor of cookie eating all of a sudden?
why did he suddenly need to ask Mara all these questions? what gave him the right to ask her all these questions?/ would he have dared to ask her if she had not gotten pregnant?
that is a question for another day.
so, it was during one of these insane late night sharing of sexual experience(at least on Mara's part) that Gephas made a stunning revelation.
He told Mara that all along, ever since he met her actually he had had feelings for her but was unable to act on them since he was a bit older and he had realized this only after Mara had finished form four.
Mara was over the moon and like a burst water pipe, began to pour out all that was in her heart, she went on and on about how she too had had feelings for him, about how she too just did not know how to share them with him, she went on about why he did not tell her about it. To which he replied that he was afraid of her father. As Mara would recall, she talked most of the rest of the night, all this time opening her heart too the man she had always thought would replace Peter, her primary school sweetheart.
Shocker!!! sine they were now past, the feelings part having established their feelings for each other, Mara, decided to ask about what happened to his previous girlfriend since a man does not open up about his feelings for you while they belong to another, right?
nope! wrong! well, not entirely wrong unless the man was simply taking you for an emotional road trip but only you were on the road, he never went with you. something like a GPS. he knows the road and so he is able to lead you very well along it but he is right where he was at the start of the journey or in Mara's case, he is heading a completely different direction.
Gephas took this particular ooprtunity to make his great reveal- 'swiry'. this is a woman who he was in a relationship with for two yeras and he loved her so much. yeah yeah, whatever man.
as shocking and a tad too painful as it was for Mara, not so much about the woman but about the staggering realization that she had been dealt on a good one, she held her head high and replied Oh! she could e casual too about the matter , right?
so, what was this saved brother getting at by his bastard like behaviour. wass it a moment of satanic influence or what? Mara will never understand. she also will never understand his casual treatment of their interractions, lik ethey never happened.
it took a coule of failed attempts for Mara to totally move on from this saved brother and his consatnt emotional manipulations and unclear signals buut at least she installed a GPS system for future road trips.
The saved brother is now married and when alone Mara reminds herself that she was always alone in this game and hopes that she is wiser now. She has learned that the gem with the roughest edges is mostly the most precious ones. what she doesn't get is this," is Jesus not a source of peace and not pain? How can somebody who claims to have him behave the opposite by such a large margin? Hmmm....
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